Marching Away From March

so I started this month with the most unconventional, so unlikely me (yg tau tu tau laa.. hihihi )..

a lot of things have been going, and such are stated below as follow:

*my niece's birthday party ( she thinks she's a real princess -__-),

*working on a campaign

*busy with Iranian stories (Imma freelance writer btw, and March happens to be the beginning of Iran's calendar),

*been diagnosed to have a decease called "urticaria" (something like hives la, org melayu panggil gegata),

*had a short getaway in the city with my tatas (tatas means girls in Nai-tionary),

*learned to use 'Premiere Pro' (call me if you have editing job k, dah pro now, kan hafiz? hehehe)

and

*i got hired (my mom is the happiest person on earth as soon as i said I'm taking the job, coz she can stop paying for my phone bills :/).

so basically, Im juggling 4 jobs at the moment. i have a permanent job from monday to friday (10-4pm), i do news translation daily for Iranian online news website ( i do that every morning before i go to work), working on a campaign - which may i say..ahem ahem ~ that is actually produced by me and my friends (will tell u more later) that also requires my attention almost everyday, and on weekends, Im handling the LED for Pilih Kasih show (live every sunday, 9pm on TV2, promote sikit, hehe). which i also somehow still find the time to do the graphics for Pilih Kasih.. (usually every thursday and friday night) during my busy schedule.

i hardly get enough sleep lately, Im tired all the time. hungry all the time. taking steroids all the time (due to my urticaria thingy.the steroids is making my ass grow every second i tell you). i don't get to spend much time with my family and friends, and fluffy tail as well (missing them much). but thats just how it rolls, and i frankly enjoy it.

to sum it up, i think march was when my "new year" really started. i was kindda "dead" in january and february. and now Im humbly happy for being where i am today, to feel like as if finally everything is going on towards the right track, (life, career, and so on)... and to Him I'm forever grateful.

AND MARCH IS ALSO THE BIRTHDAY MONTH OF HAFIZ..

happy birthday hafiz. we fight a lot, we shared our sorrows, we laughed a buckets full of joy, and hopefully more to come. at times i do feel like strangling you, but lets put it this way, if i had to choose between spending the weekends with TAS at an island or at hayaki (his fav spot) and do nothing with you, make sure u have the red velvet cupcakes ready, coz u know that i'll be there :)

the victim in this photo is Hafiz. this one was taken during his birthday celebration last year. he was about to be thrown in the pool btw, muahahahahahahahahahahaha

Between The Storm & The Rainbow

So last night, i was FB-chatting with a good friend of mine. he has a problem, and felt like sharing it.. (Im a good listener btw :D)

He was left hanging by his girlfriend 3 month ago, without explanation, without solid reason. that girl simply, disappeared, just like that.

my friend was telling that his friends keep asking him to forget about her coz she's not worth it la, he deserves someone better la.. (standard script la, i think u should know kan). but the thing is, he can't. she was his love after more than 7 years being alone, and he loves her with all his heart (awww, sob sob)

after chatting with him, it makes me think, for all the hurtful things that our loved ones did to us, is it really not worth it to still love them? is it wrong to still holding on and have faith to the one who once makes us happy? and how do you measure wether or not something is worth holding and fighting for?

truth is, i don't know....

theres a quote that says "Theres always a light at the end of the tunnel".. but nobody has ever said what to expect when you're still in that tunnel, and what do you do in the dark, to get out of there to reach out for the light..

again, i don't know...

BUT

i think it would help if you have friend/s to be not behind nor in front you, but by your side to go through the darkness. i know its very difficult to find that kind of friend in today's 'dog-eat-dog' world, but trust me, in every enemy, there is a friend.. (faham x what I'm trying to say? )

so, to that good friend of mine.. i know you're going thru pain right now, and I'm sorry for that.. believe me when i say this,

I feel you.

but remember, theres always a beautiful rainbow after every storm. i know its true coz I've seen one..

Buckle up. Start the engine. Lets Go.

so where do i start.

perhaps i should start by telling u a lil bit bout me (besides the things that u can read yourself on my profile)

suzanna ahmad is the given name, and if you're lucky i'll let u call me nai.. :)

i'm 21 (ahem ahem), graduated 4 month ago, just got hired last week and my mom still paying for my phone bills. Hiiii... *waves* nice to know u too :D

as Im writing this, I'm at old town sri rampai, accompanied by Hafiz ( who is a pain in the ass actually, but don't tell him i said that , hihi) and Im bored.... i am bored to the extend where i googled "what people do when they are bored?" , and one of the result i get is "read".. and i hate reading, so i decided i should do the opposite, so taraaaaaa ;D

Im an animal lover, I go gaga for cats and if fluffy tail is not considered as mine, i don't own any pets (you'll know who/what/why/when/where fluffy tail is thru out my post, that if only u haven't died of boredom after reading this post)

i love high heels, but most of the time you'll find me in either my flats or flipflop. i hate pink to the core, but my bed sheet is in pink, my room's wall is pink, my curtain is pink ( @jyedesu @azaliaruslan @SignorinaNina @annmarianne are my alibi. if tak percaya go tweet them and ask)

oh Im a foodie (as if you can't tell).. ask me about any good food, its all at the back of my head.. Nyuummmm!

i have no hobbies, but i have a lot of dislikes. for example, i hate reading (I've mentioned that earlier didn't i), i hate doing laundry, i hate healthy foods, i hate exercise, i hate pastel colors, i hate cockroach, and at some point, i just hate everything..

what else what else.. perhaps thats all for now. write to you again soon..

taa <3