Truth Is, I Cant....

If only i could turn back time,

if only i could go back to where i stood months ago, and tell myself Im going to regret the decision i was about to make.

almost a year ago, there was a road in front of me that was divided into 2, and i could not travel both. a decision has to be made quick, so i chose the one that was less travelled by, and ever since that day, not a single day passed by that i not think about it, and it is eating me inside bit by bit.

i was supposed to be the one who defended him, but instead, ive hurt him the most. and i can never forgive myself for not protecting him, truth is, i didnt even try.

not a single day passes by that i not fantasize about what would it feel like to have him around. there are so many things that i could teach him, a lot of things i want to show him, so he could be a better person than i am.

if only i were to be given a chance, i would trade everything i have, and everything that i will, just to go back to that day when i decided to give up on him.

what i did to him was so cruel, and im going to carry this guilt for the rest of my life.

if only i could turn back time, i know i can turn this thing around and make it better.

if only i can go back to months ago... maybe right now, today is going to be his happiest day.

but...

truth is, I CAN'T

and I'm not asking him to forgive me, I just want him to understand...